'You are the worst person I have ever known!' I yell, scream, you do this to me. You and only you. You belittle me. Degrade me. Make me feel worthless. I tell myself I'm beautiful, one look from you and I believe I'm lying to myself. I go by each day hoping to never have to see you again. I've never wanted to kill somebody as I do you. You tell me silently, 'You're worthless, no one could ever love you.' I believe you. I am worthless. For the longest time, that is all I have known. I want to cut myself all the time. To feel a different kind of pain. Something to distract me from the emotional damage you have caused. I cut myself.
I cut, I remember your words, 'You ugly piece of shit. Nobody loves you.'
I cut myself deeper. Your words, 'Kill yourself alrea...'
As I continue to inflict physical pain on myself, your swords of words seem to fade away. They become blurry. I don't feel them as much. Then the wounds heal, the cuts, and I remember it all. I believe you. I am worthless. I have no purpose on this earth. If I killed myself, no one would notice. I had no friends. But, I couldn't bring myself to take my own life. I had tried. It just seemed like the impossible. I hated myself, I hated my life, but I couldn't end it.
'Kill yourself already', you say to me.
'I can't.'
'Yes you can.'
'No, I can't. I won't.'
The rage is building. I'm tired of you.
'You can. Do it already!!'
'NO!!'
I punch you. Maybe that'd send the message across. My hand breaks through the glass, I keep the broken mirror down. 

Lost One.

Its been years you passed but time hasn't made it easier,

Each time someone asks me about you, they re-open the blisters,

I'm stronger now, I dont cry on the spot anymore,

A little piece of me still breaks and out of me it tries to claw.

I push it back in tho, i dont want to be that person any longer,

But, once in a while I'm sucked back in there, the pain lingers.

My oceans of tears have become rivers and those rivers, ponds,

I've adapted to your absence and the fact that nothing can be done.

To be honest, it's still so surreal to me,

Each time I'm tortured into remembrance, i sit back in disbelief.

As i wrote this, i cried so hard because i reminded myself that you are never coming back,

But somehow, I'm okay. We'll miss you for as long as we can.

I know you're in a better place and to us you smile upon,

On this earth, your legacy i hope to carry on.

For now I'll just keep on surviving and try to remain sane,

You're gone, yes, but in my heart, forever and always you'll remain.